samar doaku....

doaku samar
meski aku yakin Yang Kuasa tetap mendengarnya
pintaku pada-Nya samar
sesamar rasaku terhadapnya....

tak ada yang mengerti
takkan ada yang-bisa- mengerti
doaku untuknya
yang terucap dan terbatin
dalam tiap larut malamku....

aku hanya ingin adanya ia di dunia
aku hanya ingin Yang Kuasa menaunginya
dalam tiap detik hidupnya
sedikit, aku juga ingin aku ada
dalam hela nafasnya

mungkin, rasanya, pantasnya, aku sudah bahagia
hanya jika aku ada
dalam tiap hela nafasnya
tiap detak jantungnya
tiap kedip kelopak matanya

aku harus rela
karena aku tak ingin menyakiti
apalagi tersakiti.

Breathing ....

"BREATHING", one of Anggun's cool song....

***
I can't count
Stars in the sky
Or climb the mountains
I can't even swim all the seas
But I know
Absence is unfair
Nothing can replace what I miss

'Cause I'm breathing
Far away from you
And every second feels like thousands more without you
I'm breathing
For this love to live
Believe that one day life will take me there beside you

Like the north needs the south
The wind needs the clouds
To all of these reasons of life
I need you
To change the wrong
To become true
And to take me to where I belong

'Cause I'm breathing
Far away from you
And every second feels like thousands more without you
I'm breathing
For this love to live
Believe that one day life will take me there beside you

I'm breathing
Breathing there beside you
There beside you

Breathing
Far away from you
And every second feels like thousands more without you
I'm breathing
For this love to live
And I will keep believing one day life will take me
Beside you
***

unspoken feeling

lewat tengah malam
aku mengeja namanya
saat hasrat menyergap
saat rindu memburu
menyayat, mencabik-cabik, perih, sakit, sedih, bingung, panik, lemah
oleh
rindu, cinta, hasrat, sayang, ingin, benci, tak berdaya....
aneh!
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***

SAJAK CINTA (Gus Mus)

one of my favourite Gus Mus' poetry.....

SAJAK CINTA
(Ahmad Mustofa Bisri)

cintaku kepadamu belum pernah ada contohnya
cinta romeo kepada juliet, si majnun qais kepada laila
belum apa-apa
temu-pisah kita lebih bermakna
dibanding temu-pisah yusuf dan zulaikha
rindu-dendam kita melebihi rindu-dendam adam dan hawa

aku adalah ombak samuderamu
yang lari-datang bagimu
hujan yang berkilat dan berguruh mendungmu

aku adalah wangi bungamu
luka berdarah-darah durimu
semilir sampai angin badaimu

aku adalah kicau burungmu
kabut puncak gunungmu
tuah tenungmu

aku adalah titik-titik hurufmu
huruf-huruf katamu
kata-kata maknamu

aku adalah sinar silau panas
dan bayang-bayang hangat mentarimu
bumi pasrah langitmu

aku adalah jasad ruhmu
fayakun kunmu

aku adalah a-k-u
k-a-u
mu

***

Who is My Perfect Match?

(baru saja iseng mengisi salah satu quiz -- yang terkadang ngawur-- di Facebook. Well, definitely...hasil quiz kali ini agak benar....)

Novita completed the quiz "Who is your "perfect match"?" with the result Ambitious & Driven.

Your perfect match is someone who values success, is a natural born leader and constantly works hard to improve themselves and their life. They will deeply appreciate your ability to make them feel special. This type of person loves admiration and your giving, loving and wonderfully kind nature will make you their perfect mate. Your match also enjoys biking, hiking, working out and eating healthy--taking care of their body is a priority to them and they always look their best.This person will always protect you and keep your best interests at heart- they really want to go the extra mile to make you happy. The top traits they are looking for in a mate is loyalty and trustworthiness.They love a good challenge and are visionaries. This can hinder them when falling in love because they are very driven to find "the one" and won't settle for less. However, once they fall in love with you, they will be very affectionate and are enthusiastic about the relationship..

ujung perjalanan....

Saya tak ingin memikirkan ujung dari "perjalanan" saya kali ini.
Sebuah perjalanan yang kami mulai tanpa sengaja.
Saya tak ingin memikirkan-- bahkan tak berharap-- akan ada ujung dari perjalanan ini.
Sebuah perjalanan "teraneh" dari sekian banyak perjalanan yang telah saya akhiri sebelumnya.
Teraneh, karena saya merasa tengah berjalan ringan, sambil memeluk hatinya, tanpa ada ujung yang terlihat yang bisa kami tuju.

Perjalanan ini hangat dan menentramkan
Meski hanya saling memeluk jiwa, bukan raga
Meski hanya saling membelai hati, bukan diri
Meski hanya saling menautkan suara, bukan tatap mata

Saya teramat takut untuk memikirkan ujung dari perjalanan ini
Seandainya diperbolehkan, saya ingin menyimpannya
Seumur hidup saya.....

ternyata saya bisa sakit hati....

ternyata saya masih bisa sakit hati
olehnya.
setetes airmata ini buktinya
rasa sesak petang ini buktinya

seharusnya saya tidak
tetapi saya sudah.

ketika saya ingin memeluk hatinya
dia memang ada
seperti petang ini
tetapi kadang tak secukup yang ia kira

kadang saya merasa menjadi debu yang harus ia sembunyikan
di saku bajunya
bukan rasa yang ia simpan
di hatinya

kadang saya merasa tertampar beratus kali
saat dia sedikit bercerita
tentang bagian-bagian nyata hidupnya

saya tak boleh sakit hati
tak seharusnya
tapi terkadang saya tak mampu
seperti petang ini....

It Might Be You....

IT MIGHT BE YOU (Stephen Bishop)
(*sedang kembali menyenangi lagu lama ini....)

Time, I've been passing time watching trains go by
All of my life
Lying on the sand watching seabirds fly
Wishing there could be someone
Waiting home for me

Something's telling me it might be you
It's telling me it might be you
All of my life

Looking back as lovers go walking past
All of my life
Wondering how they met and what makes it last
If I found the place would I recognize the face

Something's telling me it might be you
It's telling me it might be you
So many quiet walks to take
So many dreams to wake and there's so much love to make

I think we're gonna need some time
Maybe all we need is time
And it's telling me it might be you
All of my life

I've been saving love songs and lullabies
And there's so much more
No one's ever heard before
Something's telling me it might be you
Yeah, it's telling me it must be you and
I'm feeling it'll just be you
All of my life
It's you, it's you I've been waiting for all of my life
Maybe it's you
Maybe it's you
I've been waiting for all of my life.